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They had LOADS of cows (obviously being a cattle farm) but there were 2 calves, a brown one and a black one, which I took the liberty of naming: Bob (the black one) and George (the brown one). It was going to be George and Martha until someone told me they were both male and Fred didn't seem to fit...
There was also baby goats! SOOOO SOFT!!! And they make a god awful noise when you crash tackle them to pick them up to cuddle them, lol. I never knew goats loved buckets so much either! And there was baby chickens, in the hen ouse AND in the kitchen in a heat box! Again Michael had to tackle a baby chicken so that I could hold it as I have NO catching skills when it come to moving animals.
There were sheep and a single baby lamb but I never got to catch/hold/pat them as there kept running away! Those bastards!
Did get LOADS of pats onto "the orange thing" otherwise nicknamed Garfeild, their cat which sleeps in a cardboard box ontop of the freezer outside te back door. Me wanted to take it home! KITTY!!!
Also much patting was given to Fatty and Hairy, also known as Tess and BonBon respectuvely. Fatty is a barrel of a kelpie, looked very very very much like Laddie!! Scary! Hairy is border collie and has made me convinced that I want a German Shepard and a border collie when I get a house! :D Uber awesome!
We went kayaking in the bay cause the weather was not favorable to snorkelling.. Michael capsised, lol. I didnt the entire time cause I rock! :P Was awesome funny cause he had short shorts on, lol!!
Also went to the Federation Chocolate Factory where we nommed on chocoalte and watched them make stawbrry chocolate blocks, then Michael's Mum (Sarah) bought us each a block as a treat, NOM NOM NOM! was gooooooooooood!
Michael also showed me how to twitch a fence! I felt useful for the first time on over a week, lol. Then we had to move a water pipe that fed into the waterhole (or dam as you may know it). There was awesomely large amounts of movie watching and book reading (finally finished heart if darkness, thank god!) and even time for a game of scrabble, 500 and go fish was found. It really is such a hard life style!! :P
I slept for a good half of the time I was there, and this is no over exageration on my part either! Was nice to wake up when i felt like it and go back to sleep when I felt like it and not be told what to do or where to go and stuff! *sigh*
In completely unrelated news: results came out today, got two passes (cell biology and conservation biology and wildlife mamangement) and a credit (antarctic ecology). This makes me happy as I only have to do one sbject next semester ti graduate mid-year next year! Happy Nicole!!! :D
Went to Wil Anderson on FRiday night... got his autograph, and waterbottle from the stage, and he autographed it too...with "Nicole, BTSF, Wil Anderson" after trying to google it and figure it out for hours I sen Wil an email to his private email address.... which I have :P.... anyhoo. He says it was part of the show and he first word is best as a clue.... I post these clues on FB to help try and solve mystery... Matt (who also went to the show) replies with "its Best Thing Since Fingering"..... I send off another email to Wil, he replies.... 10 SECONDS LATER!!!!! saying that "Yes, it is the best thing since fingering" .... now a few key points here: 1. I now have a (set of) private emails from Wil and one containing the phrase "Yes, it is the best thing since fingering"... 2. Wil anderson signed the water bottle for me with Nicole, best thing since fingering, Wil Anderson.... 3. Wil has a girl friend..... *sigh* This still however counts as thne 1st reason why this is the most awesome weekend ever!
The following day i went skydiving and jumped out of a perfectly good aeroplane from 10,000 feet. It was the most amazing, awesome, awe inspiring, orgasmic, wicked thing I have ever done! EVER!!!! LOL...... I had to go to work after this for 8 hours but thats ok cause tomorrow I have a lunch date with a nice young fellow whom I know stuff about but not lots about so it will be awkward and interesting an stuff seeing as its a "date date" not just a "lunch date".... win lose or neither..... busy and most awesome weekend ever!
In other news: Spring school starts on November 16th.... not long now my fishy friends!! :P
My make up may be flaking,
But I need to find the strength to carry on...
3 exams left for this semester, can't wait the F&^%ing things to be over.
Spring school is coming up quickly and I am not entirely sure I am prepared for it, but I'll take it as it comes I guess...
Going sky diving on November 7th after going to see Wil Anderson on the night of the 6th, should be awesome, many friends in large group are going together like we did for Adam Hills, should be wicked fun!
In other news: might have found somewhere to stay for next year, small flat with friends from uni. Will be good if I end up staying in Tassie.
Also, have been put on the temperary employment roster for the AAD. fingers crossed something comes of it!!!
Wishing I had more movies that I could sit and watch as I have been progressively going through them at odd hours of the night/morning again... suddenly crying over a romantic comedy feels like the best thing to do and well when sleep is not abliging I can't help it... or if its oh god o'clock afte work and yet again can't sleep so watch fantasy adventure... GRRRR
Sleep patterns will be attempted t be restored ASAP! (or after exams whatever happens first!)
So here's where we left off, and of my birthday weekend.
Monday had uni and then started a rescue diver course, Tuesday continued rescue diver course and went swimming in the icky brown muck that is our river of late due to all the sediment from the rain. Wednesday, slept and did uni work, Thursday no uni as we had a feild trip to Fortescue bay to hunt penguins. We found about 7-8 in total and the one our group found (kindly located by Alex) had eggs and was awesome!
Friday, more uni work and then to work work then a games night at Mr C's to celebrate his kind of win in court .... Saturday more work work and uni work, Sunday couldn't go to training as i had to work work again!!!!
Monday, had uni and we learnt about DFTD, which was cool but the same as last year, Tuesday we had lectures as per normal but then went to the Cascade Brewery for our prac, which rocked! I got 4 free taste test tokens for answering questions correctly, was awesome, the first harvest from straight off the tap was brilliant! The stout wasn't to bad either! Nearly left my shoes behind as they made me get out of my boots to do the tour.... EVIL TOUR GUIDE LADY!!!! that said AWESOME TOUR GUIDE MAN (Mark) was brilliant and funny and thought i was so kick arse he gave me another drinking counter for being awesome! (And calling his bluff, :P)
Wednesday, more uni work and missing a meeting cause i slept instead. Missed out on mweeting chocolate so got it Thursday. Thursday went to uni and got told we had a doubel double... 4 hours of lectures! my brain hurt so bad :(
Friday, did uni work and then went to Mr C's again but this time Mrs M was back from Melbourne and we chatted and hugged alot. was good, more people turned up for social night and it was good cause i had to leave fopr work at 8pm but saw people i don't normally which was good.
Saturday, did uni work and went to work work, Sunday went to training and had CAKE!!!!! was awesome! was good training too, was fun and there were no bitchy annoying people like there sometimes is, was just like when i first started going.... but better! :P
Monday, yet more uni and uni work..... Tuesday, uni and then went swimming for some training for my swim assessment for the scidive course (also picked up course notes). Wednesday, uni work and cake making for today.
Today, uni for the last time EVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Had cake in class that Miss J and I made at her house the night before and it rocked got Tablet off Miss E and it rocked! SOOOOOO GOOD! all in all a very good few weeks with lots of trips for uni and baking and work and finishing up the year.... can't wait to go home and then head off overseas in January!
Well it's been 3 weeks since i last updated and its about time i got my arse into gear and got onto updating the world on the happenings of the last few weeks.
To start my older brother came down for a week to go touring around tassie on a motor bike before my birthday. Was awesome to catch up with him one to one (or as one to one as we could get with nanna there). It's sad how much i miss him and Michael when they aren't around. :( Then again can't stand them when they are around for my then a week or two anyhoos. probably for the better that Chris went trooping off really...
Anyhoo, the following Thursday my mum, ada and little brorther came down on the same flight as Miss A and Miss D. The bus to the airport was late like always but the bags hadn't gone around the carasel by the time i ran and charged down Miss A and Miss D. TWAS AWESOME to SEE them!!!!! :D
Went from the airport to the hotel and then out shopping. Went home for the night and did some uni work so i didn't feel to bad about spending the next few days not doing any. Next morning had egg and bacon roll for breakfast, champagne and awesome presents! :D (had gotten one from Miss A the day before and its spectacular ... and fits if your wondering Miss A). From there went putt putt golfing with mum dad and little bro as big bro was not back yet, came last by 2 shots to my mum. was great fun, love the indoor course, its got SOO many nifty things that do tricky stuff! (you have to go there to understand!)
After that went home and had lunch, spent the afternoon not doing much and then finally headed out to "tea", which i knew wasn't "tea" but wasn't gonna ruin it for my parents and others. Lets just say my mother can friend anyone she likes on facebook, but as soon as she friends one of my friends the gig is up. lol. Yes mum, known for ages, didn't say anything.... hope I acted surprised enough :P
After this went to party i organised to meet Miss A and Miss D who got lost tryign to find their way to the other party..... LOLZ! was good they met people... more on that later.... party was awesome people turned up there was much presents and stamping people with my new shiny "win" and "fail" stamps! twas simply stupendous!
People left and there was 3 of us left (and 2 in telly but they never came out when i called so we left them).... and we decided to get pizza, no pizza was had, decided to get scones with jam and cream at 2am from the salamanca bakery (still in costume mind you!) was Brilliant! got a ride back to Michael's house with his brother who came and picked us up along with matt. All 4 of us (Michael, Matt, Rob (Michael's brother and I) went back and played guess that tune at michael's for at least an hour or two. I slpet on a mattress on the floor in the lounge room. to make up for it i got pancakes made of awesome for breakfast and to go to the markets across the road to buy ingredients! :D
after breakfast made a dash for the bus to go home (still in costume) and got there had some quick lunch, dad drove me into salamanca to meet miss d and Miss a. walked thorugh the markets before haeding back to the pub to watch grand final, play pool, drink meet up with the guys from the ngith before and have pizza. twas yet another awesome night.
Don't know what happened at the house before the hotel that night, but if standing up makes you laugh then good for you, LOL
Next day we had HORRIBLE weather! never seen a storm like it all year, poor Miss A and miss D had to walk through it to get miss A on the bus for teh airport in the morning, Then brave Miss D kept walking whilst we waited for teh bus to my house before she went home. Sghe was soaked to the core, poor thing but she would have made Dick Van Dyke proud! :D
She then left for the airport and i did uni work and collapsed. End of novel post more to update but will do later on. Along with a list of the presents i receive and got with the vouchers i had!
Debate on stem cells went well, our team won (YAY!) and I got the X-factor award for the topic. (WIN!)
Talk to another lecturer about honours and he said that depending on which 1 of the 4 had would like to see done if I chose one that already had samples and funding I could start readings for it whenever i felt like it (effectively: here take the honours, TAKE IT!!!) :D So my uber happy!
Finally got an email from the last of the 3 lecturers I emailed saying he also would like to talk (that's a 3/3 hit rate :D ) So will do that some time this week. He also has done the statement for my application to go on an ANNiMS scientific cruise from Hobart to Fremantle for next year. This is very important as undergrads don't always have statements from lecturers to back up how awesome they are! :D lols
Feast went well on Friday only 3 people didn't turn up on the night which is awesome! Was jolly good fun but the new rules about people having their certs for the kitchen sucks bollocks and if its not compulsory for the SCA/TAS we should scrap it (end rant).
Work is work like and Chris is down (big Bro). Is weird seeing him here without the rest of the mob, lol. Is good to see him and talk.... *sigh* misses family her own age....
Report due on Tuesday about tissue culture experiment we did.... Nearly finished hoping to get it done by the end of business today so Monady is less stressed.
Birthday edges ever nearer with plans coming into full swing later on today with the last few things falling to place (like the phonecall at work today!, :P)
Wore new dress to feast, works brilliantly, need to still hem it (no one noticed though, lol) so then its fully doen for Friday! (can't wait!)
HAVE NEW HAIRCUT! Still getting used to it, not giving any details away so its till a surprise for parentals and Miss A nd Miss D when they get down (hi to all btw!)
Thinking its time to put myself back on the market again after a rather eye opening discussion with the most recent ex..... Will think more on this later...
Til then, Caio and I love you!
Moral:
When in doubt about feeling silly, jinx it! That way karma can laugh in your face when it works out.
Feast is organised, as is brother coming down. As is D and A coming down, as is family coming down, as is party as is assignments, as is....... wanna add to the list! lol........, no please don't!
Moral:
Organize beforehand so that your head doesn't implode!
Finding a good man that likes you is hard...... really hard...... I have looked, its not like there's many of them and the ones that are around are taken or 1900 kilometers away and aren't interested anyway!
Moral:
There is no moral here except maybe if you find a good man, a nice man who opens doors for you, peels your prawns for you, has good manners, a job, a nice social life and plans for the future that don't involve illegal activities try and make sure he doesn't leave your life. And if you are lucky enough to date such a man (or woman for that matter) don't ever give them reason to leave.......
Feel like crying, all torn up inside, the black hole is getting bigger and I feel I will be sucked in.
I want someone to rescue me but I am not sure anyone is coming..... Is it possible to save myself?
Why oh God did I write a ridiculous email to 3 different lecturers about potential honours projects! Please just kill me now before they respond and I have to read exactly why they wont let me undertake it.... *slaps palm on forehead*
Ok so maybe its not that stupid but still, feel like a right royal arse for even asking them the questions I did. Intelligent question that they might be like: What techniques are you looking at using to analyse the material? How are you looking at getting the material to test (cause its from a southern right whale)? Would you suggest any previous knowledge of genetic procedures before undertaking this project and is so what and how would I acquire those skills? etc etc etc
IDIOT!
Gonna go crawl into my hovel now and hope that they just don't end up replying so that I can pretend it never happened......
In other news, going on apicnic tomorrow with the Anime guys, should be wicked fun as we are goign to see Ponyo afterwards in North Hobart.
Only 12 days til my 21st Biatches!!!! :D Talk more on Friday when my first guest arrives (hello Chris! :P) till then, byeeeeeeeee
So here's the facts:
Field trip was from August 31st to September 4th, and we went to Narawntapu National Park (up near Port Sorell on the North coast). The class of roughly 45 was split into 3 groups: a line transect group, a small mammal trapping group and a approach distance group. I was in the approach distance group. :D
Basically what our group was doing was looking at wombats and macropods (roos, wallabies, pademelons, etc) to see how close you can get before they change their behaviour, run, return to normal behaviour, etc so as to make up guidelines for tourists that want to approach wildlife. Pretty neat right? :P
So, we appraoched in groups of 3 people, not talking so noise wouldn't be a variable, had a scribe and a distance calibrated person taking observations. So our group of 17 got split into 3 smaller groups of ~6 people. This would have been fine had our small group not contained the most annoying little shit for brains US exchange student EVER! Most exchange students are lovely and I have never had a problem with them, he however, *sigh*, makes me want to cry because he is so tragically unrealistic and annoying.
Luckily though the other people in my group were all my good mates who equally hated him.
We had some last minute small scale flooding on the last night we were there, made it interesting, but it was only a little rain on most days for the rest of the week. Have a billion photos of wombats and roos and walabies with joeys (the park had its highest birthing year on record!) even have some pictures of a wombat swiming (which appartently they aren't supposed to do :D ), and a picture of some of the millions of solider crabs that migrated across the beach on the one fine day we had out there.
Did a LOAD of walking ~6 hours traight everyday to not only get to our different habitat sites but to be there on time and then do hundreds of approaches to get data... however this does work well into the "lets get you fit for your 21st" plan!!!
More about the field trip later, for now I have something else to talk about also:
Weekends!!!! lolz
The one before I went away - I saw Inglorious Basterds with Mr Ex and his best friend Mr A. Twas completely and utterly awesome! Then went to hot chocolate in Salamanca and had tea whilst we were there. Then went from there to the Circus Oz performance i had tickets to with a group of mates from uni (front row seats in the Gods for the 3 shorties -me included -second row for all other seating behind so they had a better view containing less peoples heads, lol). Again, totally rocked my world!
The next day went with Miss C out to Mr & Mrs B's farm and got the grand tour of the property, FINALLY meet Jack their horse and made Barclay (the dog) who I already knew run for miles and miles chasing the neighbours goats, lol. Had more hot chocolate then went to training. Following day left for field trip.
The one after I got back - came home at ~4:30ish in the afternoon after some running around with the taxi because the silly female driver had to give the car back at 4 and didn't know what the time was, ended up she drove me from the base to my house in her car for nothing so got a basic hlaf price fare, very clever of me, lol. Came home and had the world's longest and best shower EVER! then went to social night at Mr & Mrs L's house. So happy to finally get to one after working every other social night for the last 6 months!!!!!
Organised with Mr A and Mr N to join them the next day on an armouring trip. Was to meet them at Mr S's where they would pick us both up before getting Mr V and we all drive down to Mr Sn's. So went to Mr S's and because we couldn't get onto Mr A called his girlfriend Miss E, got home phone number, finally got onto Mr A, he drove up and got us but not before Mr V made other plans and backed out. He was the only one of the 5 of us who knew where Mr Sn's was. So got directions (as he didn't know the addie) and went for world's longest road trip around Blackman's Bay and Tinderbox. Got back to Mr A's and recalled Mr V, got better directions... he then told us that he hadn't called Mr Sn to tell him we were coming. Decided not to impose ourselves so played Space Hulk!!! instead and Call of Duty 4.... Twas wiked. At ~11:30pm Mr A's mum told us to keep it down, it was then Mr S told us his house was empty and we should take X-box there. Left for Mr S's after slapping him for not saying so earlier.
Spent the niht at Mr S's with Mr S, Mr A and Mr N. Not playing X-box, but listening to old music and drinking choc-honeycomb topping and eating Viennta! LOLZ. went to training from there the next day after Mr A returned from doing stuff with his dad for Father's day. Was an awesome awesome training session where I helped spray paint new banners and got gold finger tips from it, Dan returned and fought, which was awesome as 5-6 people ACTUALLY ARMOURED UP for the first time in god knows how long....
Came home and the next day was uni.
So to sumarise: Movies, Circus Oz, farms and feild trips all rock!
Not knowing where someone lives and roadtripping there is not the way to find the house, and make sure the person whose house it is knows your coming.
Space Hulk is the greatest game on earth!
I suck at Call of Duty 4 and..........
Spray painting your finger tips gold makes Monday morning lectures more interesting, :D
Til next time, Caio and sorry for the novel of a post! *hugs to all and to all a good night*
Problem: organising myself well enough that when I get back after this week my head doesn't implode with the amount of things I have to do before the end of the month..... not to mention the crappy assignment we weren't told about until yesterday thats due in a fortnight... but seeing as I'm away for a week thats more like 1 week.... reightous bastards.....
Firstly, A friend of mine added me on facebook about 2-3 days ago (nothing weird there) exceopt that this particular friend died about a month ago. MASSIVE HEART ATTACK WHEN I OPEN FACEBOO
Secondly, Assignments. the bain of evry university student seem to have dropped off the face of the Earth in the last few weekd for me, best part though, it looks like it will stay that way for a while yet. Indeed I do need to write an Essay on neuronal growth regulation and get to the bottom of my debate on Stem cell reasearch and do a research proposal of Antarctic ecology but NONE of them are due for close to a month!!!
Weird!
Life is on track outside of uni too (Now this truly is BIZARE!); work is okay whilst not great. Do have this weekend off as I am going to the Circus Oz performance at the Theater Royal with a group of friends from uni. We have front row seats in the Gods (awesome veiw for the aerial work!) and also because I leave on Monday for Narawntapu for a week. Can't F!*&ing wait!
21st is on the corner too, about to come around onto the home straight, is fast approaching.... "Scared?" you say. NEVER! Can't wait to travel the world and drink where ever my heart pleases cause its damn well legal for me to do so now! <3 <3
That's about it really and I really should be heading off to the double lecture I have on Antarctic Whales (awesome I know!) so until then, Toodle Pip and have a good one!
Paid for hotel for Miss D and Miss A yesterday for when they come down to visit for my birthday.
Did passport interview this morning then paid for that. Feeling much poorer but happy at the progress.
Have got a debit Master card on its way, glad its debit not credit, lol. Means I can spend my money when I am away without getting in debt.
Going to the circus not this Saturday but the one following then leave the Monday after for 4 nights to go on yet ANOTHER field trip.
We are going to Narawntapu national park, and I get to chase after macropods (roos, wallabies, pademelons etc) and wombats!
No assignments due for the next month.... kinda crazy happy about that!!!
Looking forward to so many things and it seems pieces are falling into place.
Generally feeling life is being accomplised right now, its a great feeling, should feel it more, :P
Talk to you all later with a more explosive update I am sure, this was rather boring and to the point!
Idea: Get friends from mainland down
Dream: To get them ALL here
Reality: my favorite 2 people in the world are coming down for my 21st!
Thought: Will get better marks this semester
Idea: will do 3 units rather then 4
Dream: to only do awesome subjects
Reality: all subjects are awesome to someone, gonna make that someone me!
Thought: Will travel post uni (even if not work related)
Idea: Will cruise the south pacific with friends from uni
Dream: Will have awesome time and never leave and have to face jobs
Reality: booked the cruise today and will be going alone... but will endeavor to have awesome fun anyway!
Thought: Will work overseas
Idea: Apply for jobs overseas
Dream: Get the job...anywhere, lol
Reality: Haven't yet opened some emails I have received back from far away places.... too scared...
Thought: Will find kind sensible intelligent loving boyfriend
Idea: Go on a man hunt
Dream: Actually find someone, lol
Reality: No prospects.. nadda, none, zip, nothing, ziltch...
Wonder if going after somethings in life inevitably leads to you not getting others as your focus lessens....
Don't really know these guys to well, meet them 3-4 times before but never gotten to know them if you know what I mean. Was nice that we were all able to just talk and hug when we all needed it. Didn't end up staying for tea as I went to dance practice as the last thing I wanted to do was sit around eating tea with 200 people who use to live with (him). Could see that making me feel worse so left when i had the chance.
In other news, started cloning my own plant on Tuesday! AND!!! I got to do work on an actual ice core from Antarctica on Thursday (taken from just outside Casey Station for those wishing to know). Uni was brilliant this week to be totally honest and it looks like its only going to get better with tomorrow more cloning awaits and sperm whales on Thursday and then penguins and wombats later on down the track! SO excited!
Work has been ok, they have given me the crap shifts for the last few weeks so my sleep patterns have been off and I didn't even sleep last night. GRRRRRRRRRR! Made lectures this morning interesting..... Never again will i find Inbreeding as funny as I did today.... Don't ask.
Saturday was fucking awesome! Went and saw HP6 with the ex and afterwards we went to the casino and played pontoon for like 3 hours (or at least it felt that way) then walked from Wrest Point to the wharfs (a good 35 minute walk) to get fish and chips for tea, was delicious, then we went to the ex's workplace and played ping pong for an hour, when there was no one else there, was very cool playing pingpong 17 storeys up in an empty building...... view was awesome :P
Have been losing weight also! Might just be stress or the crap sleep or something, maybe its jut my body eating up fat to keep me warm for winter, whatever the reason it rocks! :D Hope it keeps going to the point of me being able to fit into a pair of pants I brought down with me when I mived down that haven't fitted for a while now. Have also noticed that the "chest reigon" has been getting smaller also, you never know maybe I will look normal one day, lol.
Love to all, I miss you all terribly, hope things start going right for you all and don't worry whatever life throws at you you can catch it and throw it right back.
*hugs* Til next time, Hellen
Whilst some people I know will say things will get better and look on the bright side and chin up and yadda yadda, I think that whilst this week has been rather hellish I have learnt so much about myself and my friends (especially those in Tassie). I know who i turn to when I need comfort and reassurance, I know who is there with a hug and doesn't need a word to be said before hand, I know who will continue to call everyday after a major event to check up on me, I know my support base is strong and it seems ever growing and humbling.
I love all my friends (I truly do) I thank each and every one of you for making this last week that bit more tolerable and the ones in the future worth looking forward too. *hugs and love* Hellen
"The mark of a true friendship is not how long you have known each other, but how well you understand each other."
I am making a public statement here on my LJ where people can see and read it and I can not deny I said it.
I hate working this hard, I hate being so far away from people I miss more each day, I hate having so many awesome people around me in Tassie making me want to stay, I hate not knowing where the year is going and if I'll finish it with a degree or not, I hate thinking I might get honors when I might not, I hate fighting with my Nanna about stupid pansy little things and never really having things the way they were before, I hate having a job that pays me but not having enough money to do what I want and genuinely need to make me feel like what i am doing is worthwhile, I hate being overweight, losing weight, and then finding out its back on... I hate boring lectures and the people who come out and say "WOW that was so interesting!" and me looking down to see doodles and scribbles all over my page, I hate feeling like I shouldn't be here, I hate feeling like I am not good enough, I hate being alone, I hate Tasmanian wind and rain and sleet and clouds and sunshine...
I hate looking back on the last 2 years and still not being able to tell if I really did get those marks because I deserved them or just cause I sucked less then other people, I hate people expecting to much from me and then letting them down, I hate not getting hugs when I need them, and getting to many when I don't, I hate staying up late thinking about how much I hate things, I hate not being able to tell people how much I care about them, I hate people telling me I am smart.
I hate hearing from my friends only when shit has hit the wall and only once a year and only when I am in Canberra, I hate that not more people have come to visit me, I hate people thinking that its to hard, I did it... It's not that hard really.
I hate being thought of as the one with common sense and morals and ethics, the one who can do no wrong yet frequently does, I hate being the quiet one in class and then people thinking that's just the way I am, I hate judging people before I know them, I hate the fact I haven't given up on myself, I hate that people are right... I will push on, I will be fine, I will make it.
Since then I have realised things have changed, so the rest of this post will be about things I love, just to prove i don't hate everything...
I love finishing what i start no matter how hard i have to push myself to do it, I love my determination, tenacity,joyfulness and optimism. I love my friends in both canberra and tassie (and NZ and darwin :P), I love my family even when we fight, I love my pets (both living and dead, feathered furred and scaled), I love the unknown, I love mystery and riddles, I love the unexpected and taking a chance or a risk, I love thinking of myself as better then i am... getting reminded that I'm not, but thinking still anyway, lol. I love how generous, open and willing people have been to me and how helpful and supporting many many many people have been!
I love my job... it so damn cushie, :P, I love the people at work who make me laugh and stay awake after a long exhausting day of uni and study, I love my body, unperfect as it is it is mine and every inch of it makes me smile (though very rarely all at once), I love being intrigued by what i am studying and constantly asking questions and wanting to know more, i love being curious! I love my lecture note drawing... especially when they win the end of lecture prize that a group of my friends started.... silly but fun! I love that I am no longer alone in this, and knowing i really wasn't in the first place (silly billy that i am!).
I love tassie despite its weather and inbreds, lol
I love pushing myself and finding out where my boundaries are, I love being adventourous, musical and crazy. I love it when people tell me that i have done something better then they imagined, I love hugs, cuddles, spooning and piggy backs, :P I love how much people care for me, and how much i care for them. Even when i don't say it nearly enough!!!! I love compliments but am never quite sure how to take them....
I love hearing from people that i havent seen or spoken to in a long time, i love being nostalgic, I love travelling and planning trips even if I don't go on them, I love peoples high opinions of me... even when i think they are wrong, I love that people are optimistic about me and my future when i am not, i love that my friends can always... no matter what... make me smile, laugh and get over it!
I love being the loud one, the centre of attention and the one that changes their personality to suit the mood. I love my ability to recognise scumbags from amile away, I love that i haven't given up on myself and that I am to stubborn to turn it in, I love it when I am right, lol. I love my passion and childishness outlook on life.
I love my life :D all my love to those reading from where ever you are!
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Five things you will find if you open my bag.
1. Wallet
2. Phone
3. Keys
4. Diary of knowledge
5. Pens (LOTS!)
Five things in my bedroom
1. Bed!
2. Wardrobe!
3. Desk!
4. Chair!
5. Clothes!
Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life
1. Travel to Antarctica - possibly for research possibly just for shit and giggles
2. Make a difference in peoples lives
3. Live an open, honest life full of love
4. To die with no regrets but many bad memories
5. Be proud of my brothers (for whatever they do)
Five things that make me very happy
1. Friends, the un-quitting, high lifting faces of those that like you for you.
2. Family, those people that are there even when your friends aren't
3. The idea of Graduating at the end of the year... scary but major happy!
4. Traveling to Canberra to see friends and family
5. Chocolate, especially the good stuff
Five things I’m currently into
1. Dinner dates
2. Wearing corsets - more then I was, anyways
3. New friends
4. Bad 1990's music, pathetic but true
5. Travel Itineraries!!!
Five things on my To-Do list
1. Pass this year
2. Travel the world
3. Get a good job - whether ot pays well or not it has to make me happy
4. Visit friends more often
5. Get a better relationship with the big guy again
Five things some people may or may not know about you
1. I have a scar next to my belly button....
2. I can sing the alphabet backwards, when both sober and drunk!
3. I want to live overseas before I die.
4. I want to climb a big fuck off mountain (not Mt. Everest but it is tempting) like K2 or Mt. Kilimanjaro or something...
5. I have a back up plan for if I die before I want to!!!!!
Five most important moments of the last year
1. The phone call saying my grandmother was dead
2. The best field trip ever - Maria Island
3. GETTING A JOB!!!!
4. 12th night ftw!
5. When my parents and brother came down for Xmas
Five things you enjoy doing during your free time
1. Sewing
2. Reading
3. Talking to my friends
4. Sleeping - or the attempt at...
5. Chilling with my Nanna
